It is getting easier to apologize, now that God is working with me on humility!
I am still screwing up at times, but God is sending me test cases to mess up, so I can feel sorry for my action or words, and then apologize. I love this! It has been so hard for me to think I was wrong. Then if I got as far as “thinking” I was wrong, I certainly wasn’t going over the cliff and “saying” I’m sorry, either to God or the person involved, sad to say.
Or what if I am right, but the wrong part is I hurt someone in the process of proving I’m right?
I am discovering when I say I’m sorry (and genuinely feel it in my heart,) THAT is when true love happens. The opposite of arguing my point to death, does nothing more than create a barrier between not only that person, but God also. How? Because the sin, is pride. “Oh I know everything.” “Boy are you a dork for not knowing this.” This doesn’t please God one iota.
When I die and meet Jesus face to face, is He going to say “Hey, you’ve been great at knowing everything, I was sometimes afraid you were going to take over the world.” Haha. Really, is it going to matter that we didn’t know everything? I just want to love other people and I think one of the best gifts we can give each other is humility.
How many people have said to me “I am so glad that you proved me wrong. You’re the best!”? Zero.
I realize there are exceptions, where I won’t validate something that is morally wrong and there is righteous anger involved (something that goes against what God teaches.)
But I am realizing that much of what I will get into tizzies over, usually with my husband, just doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things. And the worst part is, not feeling sorry for the tizzy topic, keeps me from ultimately loving my husband as much as possible AND loving God because there is the barrier of pride and discontentment.
9 To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’
13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
I want to follow in the tax collector’s footsteps, not the Pharisees.
37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.
Pride being stripped is the pathway to loving God fully, and loving others.
Everyone praying for me, thank you! If you need prayer, please let me know.