Getting Easier

It is getting easier to apologize, now that God is working with me on humility!  

I am still screwing up at times, but God is sending me test cases to mess up, so I can feel sorry for my action or words, and then apologize.   I love this!  It has been so hard for me to think I was wrong.  Then if I got as far as “thinking” I was wrong, I certainly wasn’t going over the cliff and “saying” I’m sorry, either to God or the person involved, sad to say. 

Or what if I am right, but the wrong part is I hurt someone in the process of proving I’m right?

I am discovering when I say I’m sorry (and genuinely feel it in my heart,) THAT is when true love happens.  The opposite of arguing my point to death, does nothing more than create a barrier between not only that person, but God also.  How?  Because the sin, is pride.  “Oh I know everything.”  “Boy are you a dork for not knowing this.”  This doesn’t please God one iota.

When I die and meet Jesus face to face, is He going to say “Hey, you’ve been great at knowing everything,  I was sometimes afraid you were going to take over the world.”   Haha.  Really, is it going to matter that we didn’t know everything?   I just want to love other people and I think one of the best gifts we can give each other is humility.

How many people have said to me “I am so glad that you proved me wrong.  You’re the best!”?  Zero.

I realize there are exceptions, where I won’t validate something that is morally wrong and there is righteous anger involved (something that goes against what God teaches.) 

But I am realizing that much of what I will get into tizzies over, usually with my husband,  just doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things.  And the worst part is, not feeling sorry for the tizzy topic, keeps me from ultimately loving my husband as much as possible AND loving God because there is the barrier of pride and discontentment.

Luke 18:9-14

To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’

13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’

14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

I want to follow in the tax collector’s footsteps, not the Pharisees.  

Matthew 22:37-38

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’  38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.

Pride being stripped is the pathway to loving God fully, and loving others.

Everyone praying for me, thank you!  If you need prayer, please let me know.

27 thoughts on “Getting Easier

  1. Pastor told us this morning to focus on the positive side of life and not the negative. By sharing our hopes and joys, it leaves little room for the negative thoughts. Keep up the good work, Praying for you.

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    1. Agreed! Thank you for your prayers. Would you mind praying for God’s leading tomorrow? I need to discuss an issue via a phone call re taxes. I’m being held back from finishing ours bc one institution is not caring about correcting their mistake. It is impacting my time and money and I need Gods way in this situation. I’d appreciate prayer.

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  2. God is changing me , too , and this is something I had to change. It’s hard when you just want to be sure someone knows the right way but God showed me that LOVE matters more! Oh 🤦‍♀️. The best part is he has shown me that he loves me even when I’m a dodo ! 😁

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    1. Yes! I love your comment, especially how God loves me even when I’m a dodo. So true! Thank you for following me. I’ll check your posts out too.


  3. Being humble requires honesty about self first. When self is out of the picture the love of God will flood the soul. Dying to self is hard, takes a lot of time in which I am so glad God has the patience to work with me. Thanks for you honest post.

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    1. Thank you Betty. This is really good. I am slowly learning this thru God’s patience also. Im learning, it is my mind that needs controlled and the only thing I can control. I see goodness when my mind isn’t off on its own, with negative thoughts. I’ve been catching negative thoughts, confessing and renewing my mind with a flooding of praise to Jesus, in all the moments He gives me. That includes finding the goodness in my spouse. Thank you again for sharing your valuable lessons. ❤


      1. I just listened to a podcast today with Dr. Lee Warren, brain surgeon. He says the brain is prompted always to go to the negative because from an infant we use the negative to teach children, such as, don’t touch that stove and then when they do the brain remembers that negative hurt. It was an excellent podcast. this man is a Christian, has a couple books out, using science to co-exsist with God’s Word. Those men and women who study the body and all it’s aspects and are strong believers are ones to read. Of course God knew all this, so think on these things that are pure and lovely instead of the negative works. But, we the enemy of our soul, the devil and the sin filled world continues to blast our minds with negative. I was 35 before I got saved so have lots of negative memories. They are not gone but they do not rule me, well most of the time. It’s a battle and continues till Jesus takes us home. Obedience is the strongest spiritual tool we can use in this battle. Don’t go on feelings, don’t follow those who do not follow Jesus. Do exactly what you are doing, enter the battle armed with His Word, and the assurance of your salvation and that you are a child of the King. We have won sister, we have won.

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  4. Hi, I’m Queen, I write from Italy. Can I ask you to pray for me for a bigger, loving heart? I have sometimes prayed but I’m not good. I have no faith. I try and call God he speak, cry, sing. But my illness consumes me and makes me fear that I can no longer give anything of myself. Can you please ask him to help me? I try to save people, I try to save children but I don’t always have the strength. Sometimes I get discouraged and cry because I wish that suffering does not exist.


    1. Hi there. Yes, I will pray for you! Im sorry you suffer an illness that consumes you. 😢 Jesus is our Savior, only Jesus saves us. HE is our best friend. Times are troubled and HE is there waiting for us to turn to Him and know Him. ❤❤❤


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